What do I want?

It struck me last night in bed that it might have been helpful to have been praying and talking to God recently, it might have helped me with something I've been through. I've come out at the other end thinking: And now I just have to figure out what I want again - I hate that. I had been hoping that someone else would make a decision for me. Of course I wouldn't go along with it unless I was happy too but at least I wouldn't have to figure out what I wanted - it seems selfish to me to be doing that. BUT if you turn the idea on it's head and say it's God... that you are living your life according to His will then that gives you the avenue to be checking in with yourself and following the path which feels most comfortable to you, without the connotations of feeling selfish.